I AM ACTING LIKE I AM OKAY.
PLEASE DO NOT INTERRUPT MY PERFORMANCE.
HI DOLLS ! So, before we got all emotional, let me just give a round of applause to myself. For what? Effort. For making an effort to be here. Haha I always, ALWAYS, got caught up with Youtube and Cameron Mitchell and Tumblr and Twitter and Facebook phew. Funny how all these social networks are getting dull day by day, but they're still slightly addictive. But I'm finally here. So yay.
So what you people are about to read is 100% true. Well you can NEVER fake your feelings, after all.
See? Baby approves.
Hmm this is starting to feel extremely weird because I have never really been this emotional but some things are best spoken and I have chosen to speak my hearts out here.
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Okay. Apparently, I have been emotionally-rejected by the universe or best known as LIFE. Shall we ?
You know I DO NOT hate Ibu. Well I just don't see the irony of hating a person who carries you around in her tummy for 9 months and putting her life on risk just to gave birth to you. But seriously, my mother is driving me nuts.
I totally know that a mother is always right. But I really don't fancy people yelling at me and bosses me around with you know, that kind of voice that mothers do when they tell us to do the dishes or go get a life or something, Ya Allah! I hate to be rude. I really love her.
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| Isn't she gorgeous ? |
Moving on to the next oh-so-emotional tale.....
Saying ' boys are so complicated ' would be so freaking cliche but I can't help it. I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW THE MALE BRAIN WORKS.
THIS IS SO UNFAIR
This is heartless. Beyond heartless. He knows exactly that I have feelings, real deep feelings for him and what, he's going to ditch me just like that? Yes he is. He just did. This is why I don't fancy love at the first place.
I mean WHO AM I KIDDING? Ibu's right. I'm only 18, I know nothing about love.
And can you flippin believe this? He even featured in my dreams once.. uh this is bad. And there are days when I would decide to sit down and just look at his pictures and just randomly sob my eyes out. jerk.
But everytime I feel terribly terrible about myself and when I feel like life isn't worth it, I would immediately move my attention to Cameron Mitchell.
His pictures, his songs, every little things about him makes me feel 10 pounds lighter. And I would surf Youtube and watch The Glee Project with my hearts out. I SWEAR I ALWAYS FEEL 360 DEGREES BETTER AFTER THAT. :)
MUCHAS GRASIAS THE GLEE PROJECT
YOU GUYS ROCKED MY WORLD.
And make me feel like a Darleen again.
I owe you guys big time.
Ohey I think I'm going to wrap things up because getting all emotional really isn't my thing.
So goodnight. And oh ! I'll be receiving my brand new phone very soon so I'm pretty overwhelmed about that heh heh. Yaaaay boleh download everything-Cameron dalam phone yay I can finally always keep Cameron close to me. He and his songs have become a part of me already. I truly adore him <3
CAN YOU BLAME ME? I'M JUST A GIRL
